scholarships

i've decided that scholarships are no fun, but necessary to get me through college.

i'm working on filling out as many as possible, and hopefully i won't have to pay anything for college, wouldn't that be amazing!?

i'm also here to let you know that if you fill out scholarships there are some things that you should keep in mind:
1. if the fags on the internet tell you to pay money to apply for the scholarship, don't do it! it's a fraud. and that's bad.
2. you can get scholarships for just about anything. examples: being left handed or being ran over by a tractor on accident.
3. there are actually ones on the internet that are pretty easy to apply to. just put in your info and they pick randomly, which means no essay writing.
4. the only scholarships mrs. henry decides to show us are the ones that apply to people who are going to major in agriculture.

and that's about all for now.
be safe out there!

dime a dozen miseries

i really just hate when people are blind and can't see what's really happening.

i guess sometimes you only do what's in your best interest,
and it may not seem smart to listen to the people around you.
after all, it's your life.
not theirs.
i just wish people could see what's really good for them,
not what they think is right at the time.
i mean, you're growing up,
and i do understand when my parents tell me
"you think you know everything at eighteen,"
i'm too young to know anything yet,
just, i think a lot.
friends, family, boyfriend, school, everything.
and for me to be too young,
means my friends, the people i look up to most,
are too young too.
there's three people in particular that i can talk to about anything,
and what if they're too young to know anything?
it's like i'm looking down instead of up.
but really, it's not about me,
just about people in particular that if i were to write names,
it'd start a whole bunch of drama that doesn't need to happen.
and if your reading this, don't worry.
chances are it's not you.
i just hate to see things around me that others can't see for themselves.
i just want to tell them they're being stupid,
but i realize there are probably things that people think i'm stupid for.
so my strategy is to keep my mouth shut.
i just felt like i needed to get things off my chest,
and i just wish people would open their eyes.

it makes me wonder what i'm missing out of life.

the day after...

okay, so yesterday was my birthday, and it was really great. i had probably one of the greatest birthdays of my life. my day at school was pretty great, everyone was pretty nice to me and my friendies sang really loud to me at lunch, and everyone got along pretty well. also, mrs. laur let us play speedball in p.e., she said it was for me. definitely.

after school my friends and i had planned to go to don tequila's to eat some mexican for dinner, and i was really really happy because all of my friends came, and usually at my birthday parties a few people don't go, but this year everyone went and truly it made me the happiest girl in the world. the party consisted of:

me [duh]
trent
kim
katie
bart
trishina
lindi
maria
chelsea
and kanako!

it was really great. we went to don tequilas and i absolutely love the waitresses there [they said i'm like their daughter] and i got a soda and she didn't charge me for it! and then also i noticed that most of my friends ordered the smaller order of chicken on the beach and the waitress brought them all big orders! i was pretty excited. and then after we were all done eating, the waitress brought me fried ice cream with sprinkles and stuff on it. she put the big sombrero on me and then everyone sang happy birthday to me, and she got this huge spoonful of ice cream and shoved it in my face! i literally inhaled it and it went everywhere! it was really funny, and of course everyone took pictures. haha.

then i got to open my amazing gifts!
maria got me a cute card & money, which is always absolutely amazing, i love money. and bart got me a white board and markers and an eraser for my room which was really nice, bart's a nice kid, and he also took into consideration that i said that i wanted stuff for my room, and a white board is something i've been wanting for awhile. that was a good gift. and kanako got me haichu's, which is kinda like starburst but they're green apple and from japan, they're awesome. and she also got me this really cute necklace with an angel on it, kanako's great. bffl kana! and kim got me a whole huge bag of stuffs, such as a college fund, a red and black [blackburn colors] sweatshirt, an extremely embarassing picture of me and katie from jr. high, and a witty card with all her love! when i read the card i really almost cried. i loved all my gifts from everyone and really, just everyone coming to my birthday was a good enough gift!

to conclude this birthday blog, i say that i had a great birthday. my friends are great and i had so much fun last night!!! ily guys!<3

love,
the birthday girl.